And as you tip into the second year, the daily grind can be even more difficult to bear –making you even more painfully aware of how much your miss your partner being around. But slowly, imperceptibly, each day will start to get a little bit easier.
Some days you might even wake up and begin to feel happy again.
Some WAY members make the conscious decision that they will never date anyone else again, because they feel that nobody could ever live up to the partner they have lost.
Other WAY members feel ready to move on quite quickly – and are open to the possibility of finding love and a new partner. And only you will know when or if you feel ready to move on. Dating after you've been widowed can be fraught with perils, particularly in the early months of bereavement, when you may still be feeling very emotionally raw.
And I certainly never imagined having to ever date again.
It had been a long time since I did anything like that.
Your grief will begin to settle a bit like a stone in the bottom of your stomach.
But then along comes the first anniversary like an enormous boulder to rub salt into the wound that is probably just beginning to heal.
Somehow, I felt his presence, and sensed he was happy I had a supportive man like Adam in my life.
And there have been some awkward moments when people assume Alexander and Amy are Adam's children - and Alexander turns round and says: 'My daddy's in heaven.' But if people ever thought badly of us, they didn't say so.